Wonderful Wednesday!

So, I've been away for a while. Last Monday, I decided to drive down to Boston to visit my son and his family. It's been quite a while since I've seen them (except for Corey) so it seemed like a good idea. It was very "spur of the moment." I left here about 1:00 and arrived at Corey's at 5:30. It was a good drive. Nice weather until I got to Somerville, then it was a little gray. My grandchildren, Remy, Oona, and Zephyr were glad to see me. The twins, (R & O),  will turn 3 in June and Zephyr has just turned 1. Spent a few days with them then drove back home on Friday. It was very hot while I was there. The outside temp was above 90 and the apt. inside was almost that hot - about 86 or so. Needless to say, I was very uncomfortable. I like hot weather, but to me 85 is hot! And, I need to have it much cooler inside. 

I just was feeling very closed in here last Monday when I made the decision to drive down. I felt if I didn't get away, I was going to scream. I wasn't angry, or depressed, just had the feeling of things closing in around me. After my visit, I decided that it is much more 'closed in' there than it is here. A small apartment, 3 sweaty children, two parents, one grandmother in a very hot space! Corey's oldest son, Alex and his girlfriend, came over for a visit one evening. It was really nice to see Alex. He seems to be doing well. 

I wanted to say that I have kind of come to terms with leaving my house for good. I really have no choice so it will be much easier for me to just go along with things. I just hope we end up having a place to live. It's really hard for me to imagine being on the street at age 65. Dennis's mother has said we can live in her house, but I just have this feeling that she doesn't actually realize what it all means. I guess we'll find out.

I have been in touch with a debt correction company and they are willing to help negotiate smaller payments for me and perhaps be able to dissolve some of the debt as well. This will be extraordinarily helpful. I am feeling much more positive about this part of my life.

David, I am wondering if you are able to read these. I have seen no comments or even any indication of anyone reading them. I kind of feel like it's a waste of my time. I am hoping you will acknowledge receipt of them and make some reference to the content.

That's all for now. It's been a beautiful sunny week so far, hoping for a continuance of these days through the weekend!