Good morning!

Guess what!! I just found out I am going to be a great grandmother! I was so overcome with emotion that for a minute I didn't know quite what to do. Then, I knew exactly what to do! Lot's of hugs and tears. My first grandson will become a dad...how apropos! This new little one will enter our world somewhere around December. We have lots of December birthdays, but that's fine! We will welcome one more. We are so blessed! 

I hope all of the Mom's out in cyber land had a wonderful Mother's Day. I know I did. Den and my girls planned a wonderful cookout yesterday. Den's mom, Laura, came too so all in all it was very nice! 

Just a side note, I am a nut when it comes to cards. I know that cards have kind of fallen by the wayside, but I love, love, love getting a card. Especially from Dennis. He does not quite understand my love of cards, but he indulged me with a beautiful card and a gorgeous Azalea!! Pink, of course, my favorite color! Heather gave me a sweet card and a gorgeous new sterling and diamond bracelet (which I will probably wear until it wears out!), and Cassie gave me an adorable hedgehog planter with little yellow and pink flowers. 

One of my bonus daughters, Amber and her youngest son, Cullen, came down earlier in the day and she gave me a beautiful hanging begonia! I mean, think about it, I am a step-mom. I have always loved Dennis's kids like my own, but to think she would take time from her busy schedule, buy me a gift and drive down from Brewer to deliver it and to visit for a while. Meant the world to me. 

Both of my boys, Corey and Jeremy, called me and chatted for a while. So good to hear from them. Corey actually 'face timed' us so we got to see the grandkids too. He was alone with all 3 as Emily had gone to New York for an interview at the University of Albany library. She should be back today. The older daughter, Oona, was sick. Vomiting all night and morning. Her twin brother Remy was being a typical almost 3-year-old wild boy!! And, Miss Zephyr, who just turned one, was running around and all smiles! Corey said it was a rainy and chilly day there. (Boston.) We were so fortunate to have nice weather here on the Island!

I am calling today to make an appointment with a bankruptcy lawyer. Just to see what it involves and if maybe we can save our house that way. I will write any updates as they come along. My friend recommended him so we will see what he says. It never hurts to try. 

I find myself looking around my house and thinking, "what do I want to keep and what do I want to sell. If I choose to keep it, where will I keep it? If I sell it, will I always regret it?" I know these questions only can be answered by me (and Dennis), it's just so hard. Seems everything has a story! So hard to part with them. Maybe I should write down a little memory of each item that we have to part with. I could do it on the computer as I type a heck of a lot faster than I write!! I'm going to look into storage facilities, too.

I am a little worried even though Dennis's mom has said we can live in her house. She is 87 and her memory seems to be failing a little bit. I can foresee this turning into a huge, confused mess when the time comes. Dennis doesn't agree with me, but I sense it in my gut. Usually, when I sense things like this, it always happens. My gut is a great predictor of present and future events.

I have decided that if I had to be some kind of a 'creature' other than a human, I would be a bird. I love the thought of being able to spread my wings and fly. Plus, I love to sing and so do birds. I watch the yellow finches, purple finches, cardinals, chickadees, nuthatches and on and on, land on our bird feeder and their simple, yet complicated, beauty amazes me. Of course, the hummingbird is my favorite. Their iridescent colors intrigue me. I love the way they 'hover' in one spot and can move their little bodies vertically with such ease. So, a hummingbird it is. I know they struggle and overcome huge obstacles during their winter journeys, but that is what I have done all my life. They are survivors and so am I.

My positive thought for the day is: I love all the different green colors of spring! They are so beautiful! It brings me joy...and what is better than that?